She was still shaken up by the thoughts and memories, they continued to haunt her awake and sleep. She glanced to the wall, a medium sized window was open and the horror rushed back to her, pushing her on her knees and making her weep. She cried not only for her, but for many, friends and family.
As she wept, the memory became more vivid in her mind. It started with a shard heat, warming at first but soon unbearable. Next came the red light, that horrible red light of destruction. Than came the sight of her husband on the other side of the room, by the window. He was yelling something to her, but at this moment in her memory, she wasn’t able to hear yet, the thoughts were remembered one sense at a time. What came next was smell, she could smell the darkness that was invading her nose and started to cough at the memory. Next was the worst part, the sound, and she suddenly heard the yelling of her husband, telling her to get out the door. She was reluctant to go, but she knew help was waiting for both of them, that they were coming to the window. He said that he loved her and she ran out the door crying. She was outside, but she couldn’t find her husband and the window was still closed in the apartment. Straining her eyes to see, she saw him, trying to open the window, he couldn’t get it. She was watching helplessly, but than he sunk down, under the window and all she remembered was screaming, screaming for them to save him. She saw them pulling the ladder away in vision blurred with tears, screaming at them to keep trying, but even she knew why they stopped. He was dead and it would be unsafe for even the firemen to go in. This was five years ago and she was able to live again in the apartment since then.
She snapped out of her memory, awakened from her trance like state by her screams. She knew it hurt, and it was about time she moved on, it was five years ago. Glancing over at the window that she opened as soon as she started living in the apartment again, it was never closed. In the past five years she couldn’t bring herself to close it, it being closed caused her so much pain.
She walked over to the window with a final resolve; she would move on, her husband would have wanted her to, to get over the pain. She hovered her hands over the window. She the sticking problem fixed years ago but she was still afraid, it meant more to her than just it sticking. As she put her hand on the top she felt relieved, and as she started to push it closed she felt like she was finally letting her husband go to rest. And then she closed the window.